someone adopts us

this is an interval --  Hindu weds christian part 2 coming soon....
Bangalore

this kitten has adopted my parents garden and my studio veranda.
posing, playing, hiding, shying from the camera

Hindu weds Christian-- part - 1

  Hindu weds Christian-- part - 1

This story I have traced of my “sub-conciseness”. Why suddenly the need to dig and get what is inside the conscious mind and sub- conscious mind? There are few reasons to this sudden awareness:

1. I just attended, no actually got my cousin married to a “Christian girl”?
2. suddenly was reminded of a friend telling me how my sub-conscious mind is powered by the brahminical thoughts, but my conscious mind actually controls it and makes it sound very politically correct.

(This reaction of my friend was not because i told him-- “of course Mayawati can make thousands of three murthy and elephant sculpture, spend crores of money on herself (the relics of power) and definitely congress has no rights to talk about it, as they have vomited Gandhi family statues and names of institutions all over the country and she has only done it in one state.... when a Dalit women leader comes to this power against the dynasty rule and shows her power which it self shows a change, thou it might be done in a “competitive” way or in a way coping the existing theory, it doesn't matter, as she has the guts and will to do it ,But then sad to hear her say there is no money for education, blah blah blah?”)
So does this mean it is my sub-conscious Brahminical mind not accepting a Dalit leader?
Maybe...need more thoughts on this.

3. they say the brahminical sub conscious roots are so strong that it never leaves you. (uff lucky i dint give birth to the next generation. But what about my legacy?)
4. there are many like this .....

what i did is an investigation of my mind and made a list of my 2 minds:

Conscious Mind: 

today it only says i am coming from a strong Mangalorean brahminical family, sp after my cousins wedding.

but till yesterday it also said:

i am an artist

i am coming from an industrial town ship – steel culture+ cosmopolitan, no language or caste bar but have a strong classification on officer/worker grades.

I am quite faded to the horizon.

I am very much rootless.

Sub-conscious Mind: 

A typical Mangalorean women—with strong headed thoughts?

Have all the roots intact?

Quite a ruckus?

Quite a riot?

love power with greed?

This sub-conscious thoughts are clear maybe because i suddenly know my mothers grandmother killed her husband.....

.....The story is interesting....

The village was Kundapore you can also spell it Kundapur, is about 36 kilometers from Udupi.

“ My maternal maternal great grand father was a high-court judge. He had 2 wives. I dont know if his 2^nd marriage was after the first wife died or had two wife's, my aunts dint answer this clearly.

I come from the 2^nd wives thread. My grandmother – my mother – and ME.

It seems my G G father was quite a violent person, he would beat up his wives. I have never seen any of his photographs or painted images but i can visualize him sitting on an arm chair on the front part of the 'Bethak-khanna or in kannada you say hebagall (sitting room)' with huge mustache. Wearing a black topi and black jacket with dhoti and a umbrella or walking stick.

It seems there was some court case going on some property dispute and my G G mothers brother was involved. The next morning judgment for this case had to be taken, and the judgment might not have favored my G G mothers brother. That evening as usual my G G father siting on the arm chair with a news paper or with few friends discussing the case and waiting for his evening tea.

My G G mother gave him his evening tea and he died on the spot or after few minutes or in few hours not sure. It seems my G G mother crushed her diamond ring into the tea and :-)